BROWN, Charles “Charlie” W., age 58, of Helena passed away Tuesday, December 10, 2013. Arrangements are pending at this time and will be announced when they are complete. Please visit below to offer a condolence to the family or to share a memory of Charlie.
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Sandi Crocker says
Charlie Brown was my brother-in-law. He loved my sister Pam, and their son John very much!! He was a good guy….a strong man with a kind heart. A little gruff around the edges sometimes, but he was much loved by many people!! He had a great sense of humor, and kept it right to the end. He was a very sick man, and it was a blessing that he passed in his sleep, as he was in so much pain! I know he is up in Heaven with the Angels, visiting his Granny, and our dad (John Crocker), along with many other friends and family members. I picture him up there playing pool and having a great time, with no more pain!! He and dad might even be golfing!! I know he will be watching over Pam and John until they meet him up there someday….no matter how long that takes!!
Pam and John – I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! You know I will always be here for you!!!
Love always and forever, Sandi
John Brown says
Thank you for everyone at Retz truly you guys are wonderful…My Father is/was an amazing individual full of love, heart, integrity, honesty and pride. He didn’t show many people the side of him that I was raised with, and the ones he did knew just how amazing he really was…you taught me so much and gave everything to make sure Mom and I were always taken care of. From coaching me in baseball, to this day the absolute best summer of my life, to hauling around a trunk full of hockey gear tournament to tournament, you always had my back. Even the time I upset a nest full of wasps, and they stung the Hell-out-of you just so you could retrieve my bat-bag from the dugout, you still made sure to stand tall and tell me they couldn’t hurt you. To me you were invincible, always able to withstand anything that life threw at you…and I respected you to the fullest. You raised your Son right, to be an honorable man. And that shall be carried with me to my children one day. You touched so many peoples hearts, and will truly be missed by many. I love you Dad…I wasn’t ready for you to leave; the pain will never escape me, nor will that void be filled but in time, as I continue to grow, I know it will be eased with the memories You and I created, and the times we shared as Father and Son. Rest well and continue to watch over us like you have done for so many years….Your Son, John
Pam & John Brown says
Our Dearest Husband & Dad ~
We want to thank you for being the “anchor” of our family, protecting and loving us as you always have. Your integrity, compassion, caring, hard work, honesty and dedication will live on in each one of us. You have certainly taught us well. You have touched many hearts in this world, Charlie! You have been a wonderful husband, father, son, brother, brother-in-law, uncle and friend to all. You were my best friend for 34 years and I will especially miss your great sense of humor.
John and I thank you for fighting so hard in the hospital to continue to live. I know your fight was not for yourself, but for us! We have received so many beautiful cards, plants, flowers, thoughts & Prayers. You were certainly loved and thought of highly by all who had the honor and pleasure to know you.
I asked you to send me shiny pennies to let me know you reached Heaven and to let us know you’re okay. I need to let you know that I have already found the three shiny pennies you sent right away! Thank you so much.
We are missing you already, but it has given John and I a peaceful heart knowing you’re not suffering, hurting and in pain any more. Please watch over us and keep us safe.
We love you with all of our hearts and we will continue to miss you! Kali misses you too. Until we meet again, my Dear Husband & “Pops” (as John would say) , our love for you will never die and in time, our hearts will heal and we’ll see you again some day. RIP, Charlie Brown.
“Oceans of Love & a Kiss on Each Wave”
I Will Always Love You, Baby!
Pam xoxo & John xoxo
P.S. Tell Dad and the others Hi for us. We miss them too. xoxo
Pam & John Brown says
To Our Dearest Family & Friends ~
I want to Thank You all for all of your support, condolences, gifts, thoughts and Prayers during this difficult time in our lives. You are all incredibly amazing people! From my Family to all my friends and co-workers, I have appreciated all you have done for us.
A special thanks to St Peter’s Hospital Staff and doctors and nurses who took such good care of Charlie. Everyone made sure he was comfortable and provided excellent care. We witnessed such compasson in each one of you!
Our personal thank you to LaRay, Director and also Al “Fats” Gullickson at Retz Funeral Home. With your personal assistance and compassion, you helped to make our loss easier to handle and ease the pain. Al, you and Charlie were the best Baseball Coaches ever and I’m glad you had the opportunity to enjoy the memories too! You are the Best!
I know Charlie appreciates and loves each one of you! Thank you all for helping us during this time and helping to mend our hearts. You are all so awesome! From our Hearts, Thank You All again!
God Bless You All,
Pam & John Brown
12-10-13
Lindy Crocker says
My Uncle Charlie was a wonderful man. I remember spending time with him when I was younger. He would always make me laugh with his stories, especially the one of the ugly princess! And when I was older, having a beer next to him at the bar were he had everyone in stitches! I was lucky to know the loving man that he was. He raised the most amazing man in my cousin Johnny. And was always giving my beautiful aunt a hard time, but for any that knew Charlie, you knew it was with all the love in the world that he did it. He was always trying to keep her on her toes and every witty!
I know he is in Heaven watching over his loved ones. Thank you Uncle Charlie. I will love you always and think of you fondly.
Johnny and Aunt Pam, I love you both so very very much. In this very sad time know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. We are all very lucky to have known and had Charlie in our lives. As gruff as he could be, you two were his world!
Freddi Haab-Fiedler & Mike Fiedler says
Pam & John – We are sorry to hear of your loss. We remember Charlie as a baseball coach for our son Tim. Charlie made sure all the kids felt part of the team. Pam, you and John are in our prayers and thoughts. May God bless and guide you through these times.
Freddi and Mike
Lucy Stacy says
Pam, Sandi, John and Aunt Rosie:
With all my heart I am so sorry for this loss! But I know that the time comes to wish the pain to be gone more than to have a life sustained. Each of you bears a particular piece of this grief, for each other as well as your own loss. We all who love you carry it too, and pray for the time of mourning to be encased with the love and comfort only God our Heavenly Father can provide. He knows your pain. I know that your loving memories will indeed sustain you; may you embrace them and be thankful for all of those wonderful times that the pain can’t touch or fade. All my love to you…Cousin Lucy
Harold & Marilyn Horn says
Blessings to Charlie’s family,
We send our condolences and our prayers. If there is anything that you need that we can help with please let us know. The Lord has wrapped his son Charlie in his spiritual arms and we asked that he comfort you in your time of need. Charlie’s pain has lifted and he is with his comforter! Our prayer for your family is LOVE, COMFORT, PEACE,AND HOPE! His loving memory will fill your hearts. Charlie was a wonderful family man and he will be with you in spirit! Remember when there was only one set of footprints it was then/now that the Lord will carry you “all”! Charlie’s Love will be felt and remembered…
In Christ Jesus Amen & Amen
Much Love, Harold & Marilyn,
Earl, Shirley, Danny, family Horn
Randy & Sharon Smith says
Dear Pam and John,
Pam and John you are in our thoughts and prayers.
So sorry for your loss. He was a very special person.
Love to you both,
Randy & Sharon
Jesse Whitford says
The Brown Family:
I was saddened to hear of Charlie’s passing. Charlie always had a way of bringing a smile to you face. Charlie and I enjoyed many games of pool and tournaments over the past twenty some years. I am sure that we solved the world’s problems more than a time or two over a cold beer. If there is a pool hall over the rainbow, Charlie will be take the lead. Charlie, you will always be in my memories.
Jesse
Pam Scott says
Pam and Family,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I have known Charlie over 20 years and he did, always, bring a smile to your face. I will never forget the Christmas Eve dinner my family had at the Bistro. I talked Charlie into showing up as Santa Claus and each and every one of my family had their picture taken on his knee. (That had to take some guts!) The good times playing pool or just sitting ’round chatting – Charlie, you will be missed.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all,
Pam
Courtney Crocker Higgins says
John and Pam,
I only had the pleasure of meeting Charlie once, when my then husband and I came to Helena for a visit. He was a little scary at first, then you find out just what a big teddy bear he was. He always reminded me of that character Mr. Edwards on Little House on the Prairie.
I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to you husband, friend, dad, at such a young age. John, tho we haven’t met, you have two great blood lines running thru you. You must be a wonderful young man. I love you and I am thinking of you both.
Betty Feldmeier says
Dear Pam and John,
I have been thinking of you and Charlie so much. I only wish I had the opportunity to get to know Charlie. Although you will miss him terribly, I am sure you are glad that he is no longer in pain and suffering. Please know that I will continue to pray for him and also that both of you are given the strength, patience and peace of mind that only God can give. I know you have many wonderful memories of him and will treasure them always. God Bless!
Love, Aunt Betty
Dane Steffensen says
So sorry to hear that Charlie passed away. My thoughts are with you and John. Take care and God Bless you.
Dane Steffensen
Gaye Benjamin says
Charles was my first born. He gave my life many different “spices” both good and some not so good. However, there was never any doubt in my heart or mind that he was capable of great love and tenderness and amazing inner strength. He displayed many talents during his lifetime only one of which was his sense of humor. He also seemed to be a good husband and a great Dad. The hole in our hearts will never be filled but good memories will help to ease our feelings of lose. Thank you to all the friends who have come forward. You will be so missed my son. Mom
Lisa Gillespie says
Pam and John,
I am so sorry for your loss. Tarynn has told me many loving stories and always enjoyed the time she was able to spend with all of you. I still have a tin of m&ms I never seemed to have gotten around to sending. I know Aspen is taking very good care of your husband and dad. I am sure he is so proud of all of you. Although I never got to meet him I know he must have been an amazing man because of the legacy he left behind. God Bless you all and love and peace. John you’re a wonderful young man and I am so happy you are a part of our lives and I love you very much and have always been so proud of you. Pam you truly are an incredible person and thank you for loving Tarynn the way you do. All of my love and prayers.
Lisa Renee
Jim & carol crocker says
So sorry to hear of Charlie passing away. Pam, John, Sandi, and Rosie you all were a comfort to Charlie when he was fighting so hard in the hospital. Of course all of you are feeling sad at this great loss. We pray for you every day and know that God will grant you peace. Pam you are so special having picked out this man to love and create a family. I know that you are missing him and always will. You are getting special prayers for strength during this sad time.
Love from Uncle Jim and Aunt Carol
MOM - Rosie Crocker says
Charlie Brown – what can I say?
Dad and I always loved and respected you, and truly enjoyed the times that you stayed with us while you were truck driving. We always looked forward to you visiting when you came to Spokane! You told the best stories!! I always loved that you called me “MOM”, that touched my heart, and I will always remember that!!
You were a part of our family for 34 years. You were our dear Son-in-law, and we have so many good memories of you and Pam together. When little Johnny was born in 1984, we were so happy and so blessed!!
Although we were miles apart, the love always shone through! Over the years, Dad and I watched you all grow, and become the people you are today!! We had a wonderful family, and still do, however you and dad (John) have left us to make a place up in heaven for each one of us, as our time comes. Please know that you will live in our hearts forever, and every memory we have will be treasured!!
All my love, Mom Rosie
Uncle Pup and Aunt Pat Crocker says
Dear Pam, John and Rosie,
We feel your pain and loss, even tho we never met Charlie. We knew he had to be special or Pam would not have made a life with him. Even tho we don’t know what his illness was, we’re glad his pain is over. May the wonderful memories you all share, help sustain you in the months and years to come.
Much love to all of you!
Pat and Pup
Pam & Kali says
We miss you, Charlie! Hope you’re shooting a good game of Pool with Cousin Herby, enjoying Granny Franny, a little golf with Dad, good laughs with your sister, Cheri. Hope you were able to meet Uncle Woody, Uncle Larry, Aunt Jane, Uncle Shorty & Bill, Aunt Bea, Marry Ann, Scooter, Grizz and many others we have lost over the years. Grandma Rose and Grandma Roxie, I’m sure, with the help of your Grandma, are keeping you in line! BTW, thanks for sending me another shiny penny, it was outside my back door @ work! You are amazing! Miss & Love you like the dickens, Pam & Kali Kitty
Pat Jirsa says
Although i never personally had the honor of meeting Charlie, I felt like I got to know him a little through the years working with Pam. My heart goes out to you, Pam, and the rest of the family at this difficult time. Maybe someday I will have the honor to meet Charlie and even shoot a game of pool with him. In the meantime, Charlie, along with those that remain behind, will be in my thoughts and prayers. May the comfort of the Lord help to ease the pain. God bless.
Pam Brown says
And, My Dearest Husband & Friend ~
I just have to post this comment, remembering the time you and I were strolling downtown @ the Craft Fair when we worked @ State Fund. We came upon quite a few little kids eating ice cream cones and you looked over and saw a little girl with her mom that didn’t have ice cream. I remember turning around and you were gone, nowhere to be found. Several minutes later, here you came with an ice cream cone for that little girl! No only was the ice cream cone one scoop like the others, but THREE scoops of ice cream! You said to her mother, “mom, is it okay?” Of course, she replied yes and she and the little girl thanked you from the bottom of their hearts! Whatta guy! You loved those little kids and animals! God Bless You! Love Me…….
Salandi Family says
Pam, John & extended Family,
We have been so blessed to have known you for all these years since moving to Helena, and living next door. Remembering how much the boys would love to go visit. I especially enjoyed hearing stories from Charlie of the many different & exciting things he had done throughout his life, sharing our stories of Utah about the time he spent there. He would tell me all kinds of things about Helena and friends he grew up with. Especially the story of when it was Winter & he was working at a gas station in the early morning, when a train came crashing thru Helena, & how even with no power people kept trying to get gas. But Charlie dealt with it like the cool guy that he always was. Thank you for being in our lives, and being our Friend! We will Miss you dearly!
Carla Harding says
Pam and family,
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of Charlie. He always had a wave for me and and smile as he would drive by my house just a few houses down from yours. He will truly be a friendly face missed around here.
Pam Brown says
Hey Charlie, I just rec’d a phone call from Mr and Mrs Simpson. They just wanted me to know how sorry they are to hear of your passing. Mrs Simpson doesn’t have a computer, but she wanted everyone to know how wonderful you were to them. She said when you offered to paint their deck, you were meticulous about whatever you did for them! She said you had the greatest sense of humor and they loved when you would come over. She said they will dearly miss you, your great sense of humor and your kind nature toward them. Thanks, Charlie — nice to know you have left another “footprint” for us to follow in life. Love & Miss You, Pamela Sue
Pam Brown says
BTW, John and I rec’d another big beautiful boka from Tarynn, her family and “The Forest”. How sweet is that? They are beautiful blue bells w/purple tips — wow, our favorite colors, you purple and me blue. Right on! Love, Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hey, Charlie, just thought I’d let you know John’s headed home and will be in Helena tomorrow. He stopped in SLC to do some shopping, check on his apt and a few other things. Of course, we send all our love! Good night, our dearest, Pam & John xxoo
Pam Brown says
Charlie, John got in to town last night and as you know, we stopped @ Shellie’s for a bite to eat. After finishing up dinner, low and behold, John found your shiny penny you sent him. It was right there next to his boot! Thanks for letting him know you’re okay too! We are missing you and love you very much!
Jo Berg says
Pam and John, I was sorry to see that Charlie passed away. Please know you both have the love and support of so many people. Blessings to you both.
Jo
Pam Brown says
Charlie, just know that tomorrow is Christmas Eve already and dinner and opening gifts out @ Sandi’s as usual. John and I normally opened our gifts with you on Christmas Day. We will especially miss you and all the fun we always had on Christmas Day. You never believed in opening gifts on the Eve as you always told us, “Santa Claus doesn’t bring presents on Christmas Eve to open, only Christmas morning, so we always followed your Tradition on Christmas Day. You’re gonna miss my chocolate chip cookies I baked this afternoon AND Mom Rosie’s famous potato salad I make every year! Ah, you always had to have your cookies and milk! Your Mom called and talked to John and I today. She is missing you as well! Missing you too, Babe.
Pam Brown says
Merry Christmas Eve, Charlie ~
John and I went up to Retz’s today and picked up the Urns. How beautiful they look and now that you’re home, you’ll stay close to our hearts! We sure have been missing you and brought many tears to our Christmas Eve tonight.
I want to Thank You for my Holiday Barbie that you and John have always given me for Christmas every year. This year John said you bought her early and had her in your truck. She is beautiful and I will treasure her forever! She will always be my “special” and very cherished gift from you. We received so many beautiful things, but most of all memories that linger with us of you at Christmas time.
John opened his silver bullet keepsake and really liked it! He wants to wear it around his neck where he said he can keep you close to his Heart at all times!
Coming home tonight for me was tough! Usually you would be watching TV and meet me at the door to help carry all my gifts in. Then I normally did a “show and tell” . Tomorrow, Christmas Day, is when you, John and I would open our gifts from each other and your family. How much we will miss that. We will be missing you again very much at Christmas dinner tomorrow too.
Rest well and know that our love is with you at all times. No more pain and hurting for you any more! Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe. We Love You, Pam & John xoxo xoxo
Pam Brown says
Happy New Year, Baby!
RIP and watch over us all!
Love You With ALL My Heart,
Pamela Sue 🙂
Gail Pocha says
Pam it was so nice meeting you yesterday and hearing you speak so lovingly about Charlie. I knew Charlie back in high school when we would ditch class together and several of our friends and just go hang out. Charlie had a great sence of humor. I haven’t seem him in quite a few years as our paths took us in different directions, but it was good to hear that he never lost that sence of humor. Charlie will be missed by all that knew him. just know that when you feel sad it’s okay to cry it will help your heart to heal. God bless to you and your son John.
Gail Pocha
Kate Lawler says
Although I never had the chance to know you Charlie Brown, I love your Dear wife Pam who always has a smile & positive words. You must have been a good man to keep a woman like Pam for 43 years & what a handsome son John you both raised.
RIP Charlie Brown, keep the Pennies coming for Pam, so she knows you are watching over her. I Believe you are :).
Kate Lawler
Pam Brown says
Hey Charlie, I don’t know how long they will keep this web site open, but I will continue to write you a note or two as long as I can. John and i are missing you terribly, but we know you are in a much better place now. No pain, young again and back to being yourself portraying that great sense of humor you always had! We’re all (Family & Friends) missing you very much!
BTW, I sent your 49ers stocking hat to brother, Mike. Being a 49er fan, he’ll love it and appreciate the “keepsake” from you! We know you’re a die hard Oakland Raiders fan, but you did like Joe Montana, me too! 🙂
Love You,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
My Sweet Husband ~
Neighbor Richard called me last night. Hum, he found a shiny penny on the mat outside his front door yesterday afternoon. He said, “Thanks, Charlie”. He knew it was from you and now he knows you’re okay too. He considered you a very good friend and neighbor and I know you liked him too!.
Mom called to tell me she found a shiny penny @ Macy’s when she was shopping and then another one on the ground by her car. Then this past Tuesday, she called me and she was so excited —- she found another penny on her kitchen rug! She said she didn’t know if these pennies are from You or Dad??? Well, Thank You both. Somehow or another, you two are a pair to draw to! You make our day!
Just keep those shiny pennies coming our way — it gives my Heart a very warm feeling and puts a smile on my face every time I find one and now the others as well! Thanks, you are awesome, as always.
Love & Miss You,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
Busy weekend for me. To the movie with neighbor Richard and Sandi Fri evening. We saw”Lone Survivor” about the 4 Navy Seals. I remember you reading the Book. It was great, you would have loved it! Sat, Frances, Sandi and I went to “Secret Life of Walter Middy” —- absolutely hilarious. Went to watch Denver/New England, play — Denver won! Now Seattle and SF are playing, SF ahead right now.
Going with Kevin and Paul to see “Ride Along” @ the 9:45 show. Sounds pretty good! Am staying as busy as I can. Missing and loving you very much. Love Me xxoo
Ray Eby says
Pam, hope this message gets to you. Diane and I were so saddened to learn of Charlie’s passing. We haven’t seen you for quite some time and did not know how to reach you. Charlie was a great guy and I know you must be missing him terribly. I know you have many friends who care for you and will look out for you, but I just wanted you to know that you can call on us anytime we can be of help. I cherish our friendship and the memories of when we worked together. I am just sorry that you are having to endure this heartache. We love you and are sending our best wishes your way. – Ray & Diane
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
Saturday morning I was getting all your Malboro gear ready to give to Chris. I thought maybe he could use the wind jackets, pants and the nice two big duffel bags when he goes camping, fishing and/or racing. As I tugged to get the big bag w/wheels, out of our closet and on the bed, I unzipped it only to find a shiny penny on the bottom in the middle of the bag! I could not believe my eyes. Now, I know that bag has been back there in the plastic for over 7 or 8 years. I checked the date on that shiny penny and it is a 2012!!! Thank You again!!! I had to call everyone to let them know. Even John stated to me, “I’ll be darned!” How absolutely cool you arel! I miss you so much! Love Me xxoo
Pam Brown says
BTW, I wanted to tell you that Saturday we went out to see nephew Jason @ the Oasis in Wolf Creek. We spotted about 32 head of deer.
Had a great dinner. Jason was so sorry that you wouldn’t be able to come out and help him fix the place up as you wanted to do. Wow, he said he misses you too. I gave Jason your Fisherman Pocket Watch you wanted him to have for a keepsake. You touched his Heart again and he said it meant the world to him! Yey! 🙂
Love & Miss You, Babe
Pam xxoo
Pam Brown says
Hey Charlie & Dad ~
SEATTLE won the Super Bowl yesterday! Seattle “crushed” the Orange!!! I know you both like hearing that as neither of you like Denver. Esp you, Charlie, a die hard Oakland Raiders Fan, Denver was always the other team that usually beat the Raiders. Rest well —
Love Ya,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Happy Valentine’s Day, Sweet Heart ~
Rec’d beautiful flowers from John and you and va ery nice boka from my other friends just wishing me a happy day. Sandi and I had a very nice Valentine dinner and had an exceptionally fun evening..
Ran in to Steve and Joni and they were so sorry to hear about your passing. Aw, they brought back so many nice memories of our days running around together and you and Steve selling cookbooks. I believe I still have that cookbook you bought for me! It was so nice seeing them. They miss you too!
I am having an early lunch with Cheryl, Dianne, Matt and Marsha. You know, our usual get togethers ever so often. That will be tomorrow. Probably the show on Sunday and Monday is Presidents’ Day, so I have the day off. I still have tons of things to do around the house, but I just can’t seem to get motivated to move things around and/or out. I guess in time I will be able to do that.
You were in my thoughs all day today. We usually went out for dinner and you always gave me the best cards! I miss you so much! You will be my “Sweet Heart” forever, along with Son John! Know that there is never a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. I am so sorry you had to leave us so early. We talked so much about the time of retiring and growing old together. What happened to “our time”?
I Love You,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
“Happy Anniversary, Charlie” ~
Wow, we would have been celebrating 35 years together, my Dear Heart, today, March 3rd. It was a Saturday evening @ 7:00 p.m., Methodist Church and Rev George Harper married us. Rev Harper even gave your $25 back to you after we were married. It was a beautiful Wedding, many many family and friends. It was like a storybook wedding with so many beautiful flowers provided by our employer and friends @ State Nursery & Seed Company. You looked so handsome in your silver tux and we were so happy! I am so proud of the fact that we worked hard to be together for so many years, even through thick and thin! Such a beatiful and precious Son we have too.
I have been thinking of you all day and @ 7:00 p.m. tonight, I will definitely be remembering how special this day was for us.
I love and miss you so much and I’m sending All my Love to You, Baby.
I Love You,
Pam
Pam says
“Happy St Patrick’s Day, Charlie”
I love you and miss you! 🙁
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
As you probably aleady know by now, neighbor Merle passed away yesterday, April 1st. I spoke w/his daughter, Jen, who is a doctor in Portland.
She said they had to call 911 last week because Merle could not get up and stand on his legs and his breathing was not good. He never was able to leave St Peter’s Hospital and nothing further could be done. Jen told me that her Dad said to be sure and hunt me down and let me know how much he loved us and appreciated all the help from you, your fishing days w/him on his boat, me gathering up his mail when he traveled and John taking care of his yard and watering all his tomato plants.
God rest his soul — he was an awesome and very kind man and we will miss him too.
Love You & Miss You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Charlie ~
I just wanted you to know that I am still struggling with your being gone. I tried to clean out some of the tools in the car trunk, paint brushes, etc. that you usually kept in special places in the shed. I was doing pretty well until I came across the last shirt you wore! Gosh, the smell of Old Spice and even a $5 bill in the pocket brought me to my knees crying holding on to your shirt. I miss you so much. My life is just not the same any more.
I’m really trying to be strong, but man, this is so difficult. I wrote my last letter to you to put in the album I am building and will eventually go to John. I wanted you to know how many things there were about you that I absolutely loved. Your beautiful blue eyes, your smile and humor, your romantic moments and your being so handsome, big and strong. I always felt protected and loved by you. I just wish you hadn’t left us so soon. We had talked about so many things we were going to do.
You used to tell me when ever you kissed my hand that it would always go straight to my Heart and no matter what I should always look North, South, East and West because you told me you loved me more than any direction in life. Thank You for all those wonderful moments and memories. They will never leave me.
I love you more!
Pam
Pam says
Dearest Charlie ~
How fun! Sandi and I ran in to Al and Barb Gullickson! It was so amazing to just talk to them and reminisce over all our wonderful Baseball memories! Aw, those were the days my dear and we had such fun! If any time in our lives, I would definitely ask to go back to those days! What a wonderful Family the Gullickson’s are and they miss you too.
I also ran into Lloyd w/Domier and he told me about when he helped you a bit paint the Simpsons’ deck and what a good guy you were. He also said you w/so meticulous when you painted and Rob appreciated you very much! He also said you w/so proud and happy they gave you the little John-Deere Tractor! How nice that was. I asked the Simpsons if they wanted that back and they said, no, you keep it. I will — forever in the shed it is!
Went to the movie, God’s Not Dead, w/Sandi Fri evening and then w/Paul and Kevin Sat evening, Capt America on Sunday. Exceptional and phenomenal movies for sure! I enjoyed them both!
Time to go — BTW, “Fats” (Al) said he found the 3 shiny pennies you sent to him. Thank You again for confirming that yes, you are OK!
I Love You,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
“Happy Easter, Charlie” ~
We missed you at Easter dinner, thought about you all day long. Changed the tradition from Easter dinner at our house to Sandi’s and cooked bbq ribs, potato, green and fruit salads, along w/baked beans and rolls. Instead of Sunday, we had dinner on Saturday and that left Sunday as a good day as well.
Rec’d a nice email from your Mom. She sent me a nice verse and I copied that and will put it in your album. Mom also sent pictures of you, Granny, Cheri, Teri, Todd and Victor. Cute pictures of the five of you!
John is still working very hard, but able to spend a weekend in Las Vegas. He is doing good and missing you too.
Just thought I’d write a few lines to let you know we’re doing “okay”. I am going w/Sandi this weekend to Spokane and w/spend some time w/Mom and brothers Craig & Steve. I was able to take some time off, so that’s a good thing.
Know that we love and miss you!
Love You,
Pam 🙂
xxoo
Pam Brown says
Good Morning, Charlie ~
Sandi and I went to Spokane last week. Mom left for Florida to spend time w/Aunt Betty, so we wanted to spend time w/her before she left.
Dinner @ Brother Steve’s Saturday. I gave him your Jimmy Johnson collector card/cars that you wanted him to have. He said he really liked that! Out to Brother Craig’s for dinner on Sunday. I gave Craig your Rainer Stein w/the funky legs, one of your velvet Crown Royal Bags and your Montana Hat you wore a lot of the time. Craig was very touched and w/treasure those items as well! He put your hat on and looked pretty handsome in it!
Neighbor Richard was our dog sitter and care taker out @ Sandi’s place. He fixed a few things around the house and said he enjoyed sitting out in the yard.
Thought I’d let you know I was able to deliver those treasured items that you gave to the brothers. They miss you a lot, especially Craig! You two really had a lot in common. They wished they could have gotten over to see you, but the storm and cold was so bad when you w/in the hospital.
Missing & Love You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Oh, Charlie, I missed you taking me to dinner today for Mother’s Day! The day was cold and windy. We were expecting some snow, but it hasn’t snowed yet!
Sandi and I went to Chili’s and had a nice steak dinner. John called to wish me a Happy Mother’s Day. He has been working a lot, with only Sundays off. Tarynn graduated from College Saturday, so we mailed her gift out. Other than that, not really anything new.
Miss & Love You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHARLIE” ~
You always celebrated your Birthday on May 15th. You told me that your Birthday meant that you had made it just one more year in Life! You would have been 59 years old today here on Earth.
We are going to release balloons for you this evening, so be on the look-out, as we’ll have your name written on some of them, wishing you a wonderful Birthday!!
Love & Miss You Tons,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Good Morning, Charlie ~
We released the Birthday Balloons for you Thurs evening after I finished up work. Sandi stopped by and even got you two purple balloons too.
Thinking about you and wishing you a “Happy Day”!
Love & Hugs,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
Well, things are still about the same. I am doing pretty well, hanging in there every day. My afternoons are so long without you there, so my hours have changed now and that’s better for me. At least the day goes a bit quicker and the evenings not quite as long.
John is still working on the big solar tower in Tonapah, NV. He’s been there since Sept of 2013. With him being even further than SLC, it makes it difficult for him to make a trip home, so we sure miss him!
Wanted to let you know that Pete Brazier passed away Sunday. You used to cover for him when he worked the Shrine Events. He was a wonderful guy — hope you have the chance to welcome him too!
Know you are loved and missed by many, esp us!
Love You,
Me 🙂
Pam Brown says
HAPPY FATHER’S DAY, CHARLIE
Thinking of you today, as i always do and wishing you a very Happy Father’s Day. I know you are missing everyone as well, especially “John Boy”! You were a good Dad and I know John is missing you very much too!
I actually came across the Father’s Day Card I bought for you last year to give to you this tyear. 🙁 I am missing Dad too. I haven’t found any more shiny pennies for quite some time now — you must be busy helping others and keeping a watch over all our loved ones!
Love & Miss You Terribly,
Love, ME 🙂
Pam Brown says
Happy 4th of July ~
Mom came over from Spokane, also John flew in from Vegas. We had a great time. Spent the 4th out @ Lindy and Adam’s house. Great BBQ and then out to Tia’s in EH to watch the fireworks. They w/beautiful this year, nice evening.
Charlie, John bought me a Mustang Convertible — OMG, I was so surprised and made me cry! It is absolutely the most fun. I wish you w/here so we could go for a ride out to Jason’s Oasis Restaurant!
Missing you and heard from your Mom. She has had Granny and Cheri Butterflies again in her yard, but she said she hasn’t had a sign from you yet. I told her you liked Dragonflies too, so you might want to pay her a visit. She misses you too, we all do!
Love You,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
August 10, 2014
Hi Charlie ~
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We had a nice Birthday celebration for John. He turned 30 years old today! I remember how excited you were when he arrived in this World and how proud you continued to be of him throughout time!
We had a lot of fun while we were on vacation and sad when John had to leave back to NV. We missed you a lot and reminisced on some great memories we’ve made over the years. Wish you could have been with us to take a convertible ride in the Mustang! You would have loved it!
Missing you and wondering how you’re doing??? II have found one more shiny penny, Sandi too. If you think of it, send us more. It’s nice to know when we find them that you’re letting us know everything’s still okay. 🙂
Love & Miss You, Terribly,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Oh, I forgot to mention that John stopped on evening while he was in NV and bought a COKE. You know he doesn’t drink soda, but he said it sounded pretty good. When he got home from work, he said he put it in the fridge.
Later that evening, John said he thought that that COKE sounded pretty good, so he went and got it out of the fridge. Low and behold, your name “Charles” was on the bottle! He said he couldn’t believe it!!! Unbeknown to any of us, I guess COKE has been putting names on their Coke bottles. John said it was no coincidence and he said, “here’s to you, Pops”. I thought that was amazingly too cool!!! Another confirmation from YOU. Love you.
Pam Brown says
Dear Charlie ~
I heard from Chris and seems he is looking for family history to help Aiden w/his project in school. I was able to supply Chris w/some family history, but did not know a lot. Hope Aiden does well on his project.
Winterized the house most of the weekend. Boy, how tough that always is. I have appreciate you so much over all those years, as you were always the one who was on top of the winterizing thing! I don’t like doing it @ all, but with your guidance, I got everything accomplished. It took me most of the day and as I sat down to take a short break, I talked to you and cried. I miss you a lot! I know even though I help you, you always had a joke or two to make me laugh. Damn, I miss that.
Gotta go and get some of the outside work done this evening.
Love & Miss You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
I haven’t written lately, so thought I’d let you know what’s been going on . A lot has happened over the past 3 months this summer and fall is approaching. All of us have been trying to get Mom to move back to Helena and she agreed that it would be great to live over here again. However, we ran in to quite a few speed bumps and it looks like Mom will need to sell her house in Spokane before she can move over. We’re looking @ spring 2015. Hopefully that will work out for all of us.
Niece Amanda is getting married in Seattle this coming summer and I sure hope maybe John and I can go. I know if you were still here, you’d enjoy seeing everyone again, esp Family! Mandy is such a beautiful young lady and I am so proud of her!
I was able to order your Urn Charms, filled them carefully and mailed them to your Mom. I rec’d her email the other day and she loved them! One for Teri, Todd, Pops and Mom. I let them chose which one they wanted. I just apologized for not getting them mailed to them sooner. It was a tough task and I cried, but Mom said it touched her Heart. She misses you a lot! She rec’d a beautiful visit from 2 butterflies and figured they were Granny and your sister, Cheri. She’s still waiting for another to join her other two. I told her you always liked dragonflies, so be on the look-out.
John is still doing well. He is still in Tonapah, looks like until March and then on to Cal to work on the next solar energy site. He’s pretty excited to be a part of this project. He just continues to amaze me with all his accomplishments, his such kind heart and very Proud of him too. We both miss you very much.
It will be a year coming up in November that you became so sick — Nov 17th and on a Sunday evening. It was pain staking watching you suffer and not wanting to leave usl. I Trust that God has known best for us during this difficult time. It doesn’t get better, but I am okay and want you to know that I still love and miss you very much!
Thanks for watching over us. I feel your presence every day and feel your warmth and caring heart ;that helps to comfort me at times when I feel alone. BTW, I’m still finding your shiny pennies every now and then again. Thank You for all the confirmations!
I Love You More,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hey Charlie ~
I just wanted you to know that I swear I smelled your Old Spice Cologne that John got you the other night. It was indeed pretty strong and you always called it your “fu fu juice”! This past weekend, I could smell brownies baking in the kitchen. I know when ever you baked a cake or brownies, your speciallty, it usually would wake me up out of a deep sleep! You just have been working a little overtime in the kitchen, it seems.
Election Day was this past Tues and you would not want to know, that I did not go vote! That was always your push to me and we w/usually vote together and go have breakfast afterward! I let er go this year and I know it would have sure made you mad!
Bruce came over and shut off the outside water again for us. I sure appreciate all of his concern and help. He said he misses you a lot! When ever I give him a call, he said he looks @ the number and sees a “ghost — CW Brown on his caller ID”. I’ve kept the phone in your name, changed the power over to John and I and, of course, all the accounts to John and I as well.
Have a good day and talk to you soon!
L:ove & Miss You,
Pamela Sue 🙂
Pam Brown says
I also want you to know that I won’t be able to write you for very much longer. I believe Retz takes the web site down after a year has gone by, but I’ll give it a try. I has helped me a lot to be able to talk to you on paper. We just had so much to say and never found the time to talk about things until you were gone. I miss you very much!!! 🙁
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
Good news! I accidently dialed LaRae’s number @ Retz. I found out that the web site is up forever, so I can continue to send you love notes on occasion. 🙂 HaHa!
BTW, big snow storm and I thought of you this a.m. You usually would go out on these cold snowy mornings, start my car, shovel the now off and then if it was real icy, you’d take me to work and pick me up! I miss all your help!
Heard from John. He and D spent a couple of days in Vegas. Our two “Montana Homegrown Boys” won some money and had a great time @ the LV Rodeo! John even sent me a picture of himself w/D’s cowboy hat on! I could see you in him, esp when you used to wear your cowboy hats all the time! Fun!
Take care, Love! Bye for now. Love, Pam
Pam Brown says
Charlie, today on the 17th of Nov, 2013, I called 911 because you couldn’t stand on your legs and they took you to the ER @ St Pete’s Hospital. That was on Sun evening @ about 11:30 p.m.
They diagnosed you w//congestive heart failure, circulatory problems in both your legs and Dr Harper hoped he could get you going to reach a recovery period. They w/looking @ amputing your left leg for sure and poss the right leg. You continued to be so sick and in such amount of pain. I will never forget this evening. Sandi and I stayed up @ the hospital all night long.
This was the beginning of an intense journey to try and recover from your sickness. The pain you w/experiencing was astronomical. It was so difficult for all of us to watch you suffer so, but we Prayed, we Prayed so hard in hopes you would be okay.
You never came “home” from the hospital. I miss you so much. Love, Pam
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
Mom called last night and was upset. She had to take Molly in to the Vet and have her put down. She has been sick the past couple of weeks. She was coughing non-stop and quit eating most of her food. Well, 14 1/2 yrs old, there was really nothing anyone could do and like dad used to say, do not let an animal suffer.
I hope she found her way to you and dad. She was probably really glad to see you both! 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hey Charlie ~
It’s Tuesday and just wanted you to know that John came home for Thanksgiving — surprised us all! He kind of snuck in and didn’t say a thing. Sounds just like him, doesn’t it?
He is going to be a Groomsman for his buddy, Rossi’s Wedding 12/12/ 12/13 & 12/14. He will return home to Helena for Christmas.
At was snowing a little bit after John arrived, but glad the weather and roads w/good for him to come home. I’ll keep you posted on what’s going on around here.
I am having a big Thanksgiving Dinner and then we’ll go out to Lindy’s for Thanksgiving left overs. She moved in to her new home, so I’m excited to see it all decorated. She’s so happy and such a lovely niece!
Much Love,
Pam 🙂
Pam says
Happy Thanksgiving, Charlie ~
We had a very nice turkey dinner. John, Sandi and neighbor Richard came over and we had a very nice time. We missed you and brought up memories of past Thanksgivings.
Last year it was so cold and you w/on the med floor @ St Pete’s. Sandi fixed a nice dinner and we brought you up a plate. You thought that tasted pretty good and ate every single bite ! Again, thinking about how we so thought you w/coming home in time, maybe soon.
Hope you and dad w/able to have a little turkey in Heaven! That was one of your favorites, although you complained that you had to eat turkey all week long because of all the left-overs! I missed you making your turkey noodle soup again this year. You always had the pot boiling and ready to go the next day, home made soup and very good. You w/a great cook, Charlie Brown. Sometimes I even smell brownies baking, the ones you used to make late at night. Take care & keep warm, where ever you may be.
Love & Miss You Very Much,
Pam 🙂
Pam says
Dear Charlie ~
This past weekend went by without forgetting that last year, I stayed up @ the hospital w/you all weekend. I didn’t want to leave you at all, but I had to return to work after being w/you the past couple of weeks. You w/in pretty good spirits, but in an awfully lot of pain Sat and Sun.
We talked about what Dr Harper had indicated to you the Thurs prior and that he believed in “quality of life” and would make your last days on Earth as comfortable as could be. We talked Sat about your obituary and funeral arrangements, as I think you came to realization that there was nothing left than could be done to save you.. That was very difficult to talk about and I cried and cried. You looked at me and said, “just stop crying now”. You didn’t want any services whatsoever and as far as an obit in the IR, you said, no, people that know me know who I am and those who don’t, it doesn’t matter. Years ago, you mentioned to me that you wanted to be cremated and your ashes scattered up in Elliston @ the cabin site we had. When I asked you about that again on Sat, you said NO, it was too dark and cold up there. You wanted to be placed in a “jar” or can of some sort and put up on the entertainment center where you could be close to John and I and keep an eye on me! Haha, to your surprise, I feel you are there like you said you would be!
Sunday, your on call Dr came in and suggested that you be taken off the oxygen and continue pain meds to make your comfortable. I left you Sunday, knowing that your time would not be very long. There w/several instances when the pain was unbearable and it hurt you to move even a bit in the hospital bed.
I cried all the way to the elevator and realized after spending the weekend with you, you wouldn’t ever be coming home.
I will write another note to you on Dec 10, 2014. Until then, I love you and miss you so much, my very best friend!
Love & Hugs,
Pam 🙂
Pam says
Charlie, it was this Tuesday, only Dec 10, 2013, when I received a call from Nurse Bob @ St Peter’s Hospital He relayed to me that I needed to get up to the hospital ASAP, that you w/very confused and not doing well. He also said that you said you had to be @ a Wedding and you couldn’t be late!
I had returned to work this week and let everyone know that I had to leave to go up to the hospital now. I also called Sandi and told her I was on my way. She joined us later. She also helped make the necessary phone calls to family and friends to let them know your state.
When I walked in to your room, you w/shaking terribly and I was able to calm you down by talking to you. I went over our life together from when we first met until now. You kept trying to say something, but your voice never heard and your lips moving.. I wished I would have known what it was you w/trying to tell me. I also called John to let him know. Sandi and I sat beside you all day and @ 2:22 p.m. exactly, you took your last breath! We w/all up @ the hospital the evening before and you w/in such good spirits that our hopes had been up again for you to improve. After all, you said to the visiting Doctor, “I believe in miracles, Doc” and Jason put his fist up in the air, cheered and said, “That’s right Uncle Charlie, you tell em and I believe in miracles too”.
After you passed and I walked over and noticed a small tear that was just below your left eye on your cheek. I cried and cried. Nurse Bob had told me that you said you had to get to a Wedding, you couldn’t be late. The dream I had a few days later left me in a semi lit room and there ahead was YOU w/your silver wedding tux on. I could even see the white rose bout you had on your lapel. We walked to meet each other, you kissed me very softly on the lips, backed up and said “I’m OKay”. There was a certain Peace that came over me and such a memorable and beautiful moment. You looked young and handsome, just like when I first met you, Charlie.
This day was when I lost my Husband, my very Best Friend and the Father of our amazing Son. Thank You for always being you and know the difficulty of letting you go carries with me. I hope to see you some day in Heaven, My Charlie! I love you very much. RIP, Pam
Pam says
Dearest Charlie ~
Today on 12/10/2013 @ 2:22 p.m. is when you left us. I stepped out my back door @ work, looked up to Heaven and told you just how much John and I love you and how much you are missed by family and friends.
We want you to know that you are in our thoughts every day. John misses you more each day and so do I. Please rest in Peace and know that I will continue to write you as much as I can. We have been thinking about you all day today.
Love,
Pamela Sue
& John :):)
Pam says
Good Morning, Charlie ~
I want you to know that Sandi and I attended the Christmas Service at Retz’s on Saturday afternoon. It was a very beautiful tribute to those loved ones we have lost. LaRae was absolutely wonderful! They had everything decorated so pretty, food and punch afterwards.
LaRae made up a personalized Angel & Snowflake Crystal Ornaments in your name. They are so beautiful and something we will treasure forever! I couldn’t have thought of a more warm and loving atmosphere to be in to let you know we miss you very much. Chaplain Steve was an incredible man singing Christmas songs and playing the guitar. His words were very heart warming.
Charlie, I often read: Matthew 25:23 often. That Scripture, I know, God has spoken to you.
I Love You & Thank You for all our years together! We miss you.
Pam
Pam says
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year, Charlie ~
It’s almost 2015 and I cannot believe you have be gone for over a year now. I have felt a sense of Peace, especially after the Retz Christmas service. LaRae was so kind to help Sandi and I through that.
It’s freezing temps out and lots of snow. You would have been very cold and wanting to move South to AZ or TX, somewhere warm.
My dearest love, I miss you!
Pam
Pam says
Happy New Year, Charlie ~
John, Sandi and I had a very quiet night. John took us to the Brewhouse for a very nice New Years dinner. It was delicious and they had a 2 man band playing. Sandi bought their CD, not too bad and lots of harmonica!
I wanted to let you know that former Boss, Ed Mills passed away on 12/24/14, so you’ve probably met him by now in Heaven. He was a great Boss and one of our favorites. He treated us well and made you and I feel like “Family”. You always said that.
Miss & Love You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
It’s been awhile since I’ve written. It has been absolutely wonderful having John home on vaction. We have had some great times and good memories. We miss you being with us.
John, Chris, Don and Drynan went shooting a couple of times out @ York and had a good times. The fellas all get along so well and they really have fun. They even took Aiden w/them!
John w/be leaving and heading back to SL City tomorrow some time. Today is his last day here and I imagine we won’t see him again until summer. With his job, he never knows when for sure he’ll be home. Not sure where they w/be sending him. He completed everything in Tonopah for now.
Wishing you a happy day filled w/sunshine. Know that we miss and love you so much. I don’t like being alone and if I had my way, I’d join you in a heartbeat! I am very lonesome and miss you like the dickens. I know mom is having a tough time w/dad gone too. Well, maybe in time it w/get better.
Love & Miss You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Our Dearest Charlie ~
John, aka “Bubba” is heading back to SL City this afternoon. OMG, my Heart aches and breaks when he has to leave home. I ask that Charlie, you watch over Our Son so that no harm comes his way. Please send out Administering Travel Angels along the way. I know you’re watching over us every day. John and I have lost you, I can’t lose John. It w/also be devastating!
Even if we can’t see you, We know that you are here with us, Even if you’re far away, We know that you are near. Even when we miss you terribly, You are always in our Hearts.,Even though you’re gone, we are never apart ever!
We Love & Miss You,
Pam & John
Sandi, Mom Crocker, Craig, Mike, Steve, Mom & Stu, Todd & Teri, Mike, Chris, Aiden and All Nephews & Nieces, Friends Forever too!
Pam Brown says
Good Morning, Dear Heart ~
Letting you know that John made it back to SL City just fine. He called a couple of times to let me know his location. I really appreciate that! He bought the new Dodge Ram Longhorn 3500, so I had no worries about him traveling. He kept Ole Yeller or Big Bird as he called her and it’s all covered and Chris is storing it for him. How nice is that! He has his motorcycle that he plans on riding really soon.
John has all his training, so he’ll be busy again.
I wanted to relay the messj on the awesome fridge magnet that you bought for me years aso:
“What made us friends in the long ago when first we met? Well, I think I know.
The best in me and the best in you hailed each other because they knew that
always and always since life began.
Our being friends was part of God’s Plan.
You gave me this magnet the year John was born and bought it in the Gif Shop @ St Peter’s Hospital. Your direct quote, “My Love from Me to You — Thank You for Our Son, John. He is perfect and hung like me!” OMG! Made me cry and laugh…….I miss your sense of humor, Charlie, I miss you and I miss Dad!
Love & Hugs
Pam
Pam Brown says
Good Friday & Happy Easter, Charlie ~
We had a nice Easter dinner out this year. John is busy working in Ely again, so no spare time for him to come home. We missed you both!
I missed you helping to boil the eggs again. I don’t know what you always did, but your eggs always peeled in almost one shot. Mine again w/ridiculous, but we colored them and put names on them, including you and dad.
Spring is coming, snowed last night, but you always told me that we usually have a little snow before spring is finally here. You’re so right again!
Love & Miss You, Baby
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
I think of you, Chaarlie, when I read this:
“When I die Give what’s left of me away To children And old men that wait to die. And if you need to cry, Cry for your brother Walking the street beside you And when you need me, Put your arms Around anyone And give to them What you need to give to me. I want to leave you something, Something better Than words Or sounds. Look for me In the people I’ve known Or loved, And if you cannot give me away, At least let me live in your eyes And not on your mind. You can love me most By letting Hands touch hands By letting Bodies touch bodies And by letting go Of children That need to be free. Love doesn’t die,
Pam Brown says
Friday is May 1st and each year, we had several little kids in the neighborhood who would leave us little May Day Baskets on our deck.
John has had quite a time with your loss lately. He remembers how special Sunday were for you and him. Always your day to shoot the bull or just talk about life in general. I wish there was something I could say or do to soothe his troubled Heart. IF, by any change, you can help, please do so. I told him I miss you too. I have never been the same after your left. I was always sure of life’s purpose, but now sometimes I feel lost without you.
Thanks, Charlie, for always loving us and helping John and I. We miss you terrible and you remain in our Hearts every minute. We will always continue to love you.
Love Always,
Pam 🙂
Pam Brown says
Happy May Day!
I had kind of a rough evening last night, Charlie. I was looking for the receipt to the NYer battery and I came upon your old driver’s license, cdl and your health card from the past. I lost it when I saw your picture and couldn’t stop crying for a long time!
I miss you so much. I am so glad John is here for me. He wouldn’t allow me to be “alone”, you know that, and I know you made double sure that he will be here for me. I called him last night just to talk, but he was busy trying to get home from work, so I didn’t get a chance to talk with him. Our busy world sometimes is unreal! Like the song, “Cat’s in the Cradle”. You said that many times.
Little Joe Yarns passed away last Sat evening. You remember he and his brother, Chris. He was only 21 years old and they are performing an autopsy as he may have passed from a heart condition. He was so young. This is a very difficult time for Linda, Christy and their families. I am going to the services this afternoon. It will be a sad one, I’m sure. Our loved ones are never here long enough and those taken are sometimes too young. But, I know God has a Plan for all of us and he needs help in Heaven too. You and dad, I’m sure, have your hands full, but you’re both good @ whatever you do.
Today is also Vigilante Parade Day. We used to watch the Parade on Benton Ave and then go have a little lunch. It was really fun the one year John was covered from head to toe in mud and then came over and gave me a big hug! I didn’t even know it was him.
I just wanted to tell you how much I miss and love you. It seems like just a short while ago since you left us, but it will be 2 yrs on Dec 10th. I sure hope it’s true when people say “your loved ones are near and always watching over us”. I haven’t found any shiny pennies in a long time from you or dad. We miss him too.
Love & IF I could reach up far enough, I’d give you a big Kiss & Hug!!! Your 1 & Only 🙂
Pam Brown says
Good Morning, Charlie ~
I had a very nice Mother’s Day on Sunday. Friend Frances took Sandi and I to the Jade Garden and I was showered w/some awesome gifts. A beautiful mother/son heart necklace from “John Boy” and beautiful things from my sister too!
I went home afterwards, as I had laundry and house cleaning to do, so my day went quickly. Know I missed you again this year. You used to take me to a buffet breakfast for Mother’s Day, plus a nice card and a rose or boka of flowers.
I love and miss you!
Love,
Pam
Pam Brown says
“Happy Birthday to You” ~
Today on Earth you would have turned 60 years old. I’m not sure what time you were born, but your parents welcomed you in to this World w/love and joy! Right after you passed, you came to me in my Dream wearing your silver tux from our Wedding. OMGosh, you were so young, 24 years old again! I believe that is so true today — you are again and forever young in Heaven. No pain.
“Those we love don’t go away, they walk beside us every day, Unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed and very dear”. “God holds his Children in the Palm of His Hand”. I know, Charlie, you are with us and near each day.
People have asked me how we managed to stay together for 34 years? I tell them we were born in the time , where if something was broke, we fixed it…….not throw it away! How true that was for Us. We worked hard and experienced a lot of happiness and sorrow, but a strength and bond unbroken. According to God, that is the “Art of Marriage” and we managed to endure it all! We were able to paint a picture that has helped our Son become who he is today. That in itself is an accomplishment. Thank You. 🙂
A special “Happy ?Birthday Wish to my Soul Mate for Life”.
I Love You,
Pamela Sue 🙂
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
I hope you were able to see your balloons released on your Birthday last Friday evening! Son John snuck away from SL City and came home on a surprise visit to help release your balloons! It was awesome. Johnny D came over from Missoula too and Chris joined us.
What a very nice weekend we had. It was so wonderful having John here during this difficult time. I always think about you saying each year about how you always enjoyed your Birthday because “it was one more year that you lived life”. John took us to breakfast on Saturday up @ MT City and then breakfast on Sunday before he left for SLC and John D left back to Missoula. What great young men they all are! Wow!
Hope you had a good day and enjoyed your 60th. We love and miss you.
Hugs,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy June, Charlie ~
Not much going on. A very rainy May and even in to the first week of June. Wow! I called Bruce and he is coming over to do a few things around the house. He said to call IF I ever need any help. Whatta nice friend and he misses you very much. He said it freaks him out when I call because the phone still registers C W Brown — he said a Ghost is calling and forgets that it’s me.!
Chris called and said Aiden is playing Baseball this year and needs a mit. I found John’s very first Rawllings mit that he started playing ball with, plus the one I eventually used to play catch with him. I also found your black Wilson mit in John’s room and I am giving that to Chris to play catch w/Aiden. I told him I would try and make it to a few games. I miss John playing sports a lot!
Hope all is going well. I have a question I guess. They say that sometimes after people pass away, they get stuck in between dimensions and won’t cross over because they’re waiting for their loved ones??? Is that true for you, or are you waiting on the “other side”? Sometimes I feel that you are very close and I even smell brownies or a cake baking once in awhile and I know that was one of your favorite things to do. Let me know!
I did find another shiny penny when Sandi, Frances and I w/@ Wendys. I had asked you to send me one and then Richard found another one in front of the house the other day. Richard said, oh yea, it’s Charlie! Thanks! Gotta run!
Love & Miss You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy Father’s Day, Charlie & Dad ~
Hope you both had a marvelous Father’s Day. Know that you are both very much missed by all of us down here. Thinking about you all day yesterday. Thank You, Dad and Charlie for being the greatest Dads ever. You have certainly been the most important thing in a child’s life growing up — for John and myself. I use the tools you’ve give me just about every day. I wouldn’t be the person I am without your love, concern and protection!
John showed up last week (yes, another surprise)! He wanted to spend my Birthday with me and has been here a week now. He leaves this evening to head back to work. It has been so fun having him here, as always is. He and Sandi took me to the MT City Grille and it was delicious. He wanted to go to Chubby’s, but they w/closed Sunday. Very exciting Sat evening before too. John took me to the Monster Truck races and Kevin and Paul joined us. Had a blast. I sure enjoyed myself!
Better run, I’m moving in to another office around the corner and working on my files. Just wanted you to know how much I miss you. BTW, Bruce came over and turned the water on for us again. He is such an amazing and wonderful friend!
Love & Miss You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy 4th of July, Charlie ~
And Thank You for being a Veteran and serving our USA in the 101st Airborne. Sorry I’m late wishing you a Happy 4th, but we could hear all the firecrackers popping off from Heaven above, figured it was all of you!
John was home for a couple of days. We attended a Wedding (Sean’s daughter, Brooklyn) out @ Kleffner Ranch. It was fun and we got to see a lot of friends we haven’t seen in a long time, the softball fellas. Great food and beautiful time. Aunt Betty and Aunt Marilyn flew up to Spokane and then mom drove them over to visit us all last week. We really had a great time. John B and John D w/able to take the Gates of the Mtns boat tour w/us and both aunties loved Montana. We took the tour train the next day. Mom, Aunt B & Aunty M all left Wed morning. They w/fly out for KS/FL next Tues. I hadn’t see Aunt B since WD World and Aunty M, years ago, so it was nice.
Niece Amanda w/be getting married this weekend in Seattle. I wish I could go, but I have other commitments and w/be judging the Fair in Helena too. It w/be a most beautiful Wedding, as it is taking place @ the Seattle Aquarium. Matt seems so nice and I know they’ll both be very happy. Kelly Collins w/be getting married in Sept of this year, yes Kellie!
John hired Johnny D, so he’s working for John @ Brahma now. D had to go through Imshaw/OSHA training/certi, but sees excited. They are both sharing the apt in SL City and doing very well.
Know that I miss you very much. Gotta run, babe. Take care.
Love & Hugs,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Hi Charlie ~
It’s been awhile since I’ve written to you. Not much is new. We’ve had weird weather this year, but I hear that’s the way it’s been throughout the U.S.
John wasn’t able to make it home for his Birthday this year. First time ever and it was hard not to have him home. We always have so much fun, but he has been so busy working. He has a new position now w/Brahma and he also hired Johnny D, so the fellas are doing well. They’ve been going to a lot of concerts!
We finally w/able to get mom moved over from Spokane. She’s only been here about 6 wks and came down w/such a painful and excruciating back problem. Lots of problems and she cannot even walk. She’s in the hospital now and may be looking @ surgery in Spokane. Brother Mike w/take her over and then if she walks again, it w/be a miracle.
Better run. Hope you’re doing well and enjoying pool, ballgames, football, hockey, a little golf and sports. Please keep mom in Prayer and ask the “Man Upstairs”, as you refer to him, to help her out w/her back please!
Know we miss you and love very much. It’s just not the same w/o you, my love!
Love,
Pamela Sue
Pam Brown says
Good Morning, Charlie ~
Thought I would let you know that we have had mom in the hospital for the past 2 wks. It was the Urgent Care first, ER, Urgent Care and then ER again. She cannot walk and her back/spine is such a mess, according to Dr Steele. She’s already had 2 previous back operations, so we are just in limbo waiting to hear what to do next??? As of last Thurs, she is over @ the Cooney Home where they are administering some PT and pain meds. I go up each day and have dinner w/her and Sandi has been going up as well. Mike, Jason, Vikki, Lindy and Adam, also. She is so much pain! They are having problems trying to get a diagnosis on her, let alone what to do next???
A little bit of memory when she was in the hospital ER. She was admitted to the very same room you w/in, then on to medical floor, across the hall from where you w/at. I tried to order the Oatmeal Pie that you liked so well, but the kitchen said that was reserved for patients only and mom, being diabetic, could not order it. I know you loved it! I did talk to Roxie in the kitchen and she said she missed you ordering that and hoped John and I w/doing better.
Anyhow, please keep her in your Prayers and watch over her as well. I don’t like seeing anyone in pain and it has been trying for all of us here. I am so Praying that God w/help her soon and the doctors w/reveal what is wrong.
Love & Miss You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy Veterans Day, Charlie `
What an honor for you to serve our country like you did. I know you were US Army 101st Airborne and stationed at Ft Campbell, KY and then off to Germany, where you served 3 yrs. I didn’t know you then, but you and your mom told me about your service. Your mom gave John your medals and misc items for his legacy.
Thanksgiving is next week. It almost been 2 yrs since you passed. Know that we miss and love you very much.
Love & Hugs,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy Thanksgiving, Charlie ~
Well, as always, we missed you again this year. Sandi, mom, Frances, Clara and I all went out to dinner. First time ever for all of us, but it was good. I did miss the left over turkey sandwich and, of course, you and John and all our friends we used to have over. Dang anyway. That was actually your favorite day and even thought you complained about eating turkey all week, you usually made the best homemade turkey noodle soup there could ever be.
John wasn’t able to get home this year, so we really missed him! He w/be home for Christmas, so I can’t wait. Haven’t seen him since about the end of June. Please watch over him as he travels home to Helena and then back to SL City. I sure wish he lived back home again. I miss him tremendously.
Rest well and know we miss and love you.
Love,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Good Morning, Charlie ~
Well, @ about 7:00 p.m. on this date 2 yrs ago, you had a hospital room full of family and friends paying you a visit. You w/absolutely a hoot and full of laughs. Little did we know that it would be the last evening we would get to visit with you. I am so sorry you have left us.
Know that we all miss you so much! It is a different life for me, but I continue to keep you in my Heart. So many times you have come forward and let me know just how much I meant to you, how much you really loved John and I and like us, you miss us too.
I Love You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
December 10, 2013 ~
Charlie, you left us this very same day @ 2:22 p.m., early afternoon. Sandi was with me almost the entire time while we watched you continue to breathe until the very last moment.
John said it well. You have touched so many lives, those who knew you, and loved by so many. Your mom still keeps in contact and I love hearing from her. They all miss you as well.
Rest well, my love, and know you’re thought of every day in every way. It will not and has not been the same without you. Merry Christmas. Rest well.
Love,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Merry Christmas, Charlie ~
Wishing you a Merry Christmas up in Heaven. This is our third Christmas without you here on Earth and again, terribly difficult.
John was able to come home for Christmas and spend a week. Nice, as always, having him here and always hard when he has to leave and head back to SL City. He is doing well and a Supervior @ Brahma now. John D works for him and enjoys living in SLC. I think they have a great time going to concerts and just being young!
Your mom sent us beautiful gifts for Christmas and John and I opened them privately on Christmas Day. Thoughts, memories and love made the day a little easier @ home. Hopefully John and I w/be able to take a trip down to Denver one of these times and visit our family there.
Other than that, lots of snow on the ground and a colder winter. You wouldn’t have liked being here in the cold.
Take care and know we miss you so much.
Love & Hugs,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy New Year 2016 ~
Many memories on this particular day over the years. It was always “Amateur Night” in your book and a quiet evening @ home. New Years Day was always a nice home cooked meal, friends and family over.
I hope 2016 is a good year! I miss you so very much, my Dear Heart. Know that John and I love you very much. Hope all is going well. Pool season, so hopefully you’re all playing a bit of pool up in Heaven, then Baseball, Golf, Football, Hockey & NASCAR.
Love You,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Dearest Charlie ~
My question to you today? Why did you have to leave us so early? I sure miss you.
Love,
Pam
Pam Brown says
Happy Sweet Heart Day, Charlie ~
I am missing my special Valentine’s Day Card you used to get me every year, plus the boka of flowers and the special dinner to celebrate Heart Day!
Hope you’re doing well. Know that John and I miss and love you very much!
Love & Hugs,
Pag 🙂
Pam Brown says
Dearest Husband, Charlie ~
Tonight @ 7:30, you and I became Husband and Wife and it would have been our 38th Anniversary of being together. That would be a very long time in most peoples’ Book of Life.
I will remember and reminisce back on our Wedding Day tonight and the fond memories, warm, strength, comfort, love we shared and difficulties we overcame as a couple in God’s eyes.
Thank You for the memories!
I Love You & Miss You,
Your Wife, Pamela Sue 🙂