TRUSK, Cynthia Ann , age 44, of Helena, passed in Helena, Montana on Saturday, April 21, 2018.
She is survived by her three children: Khyler Mercado, Trish Nicole, and Adrianna Fernandez, all of San Diego; her mother Jacintha Heriot; her step fathere, Steve Heriot; and her brother, John Orthman.
No services are pending at this time. Please visit below to write a condolence for the family or share a memory of Cynthia.
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Ts Heriot says
Angelbickers I what now…I my lovely daughter Mom
alex seay says
Sorry to have read about the passing of your loved one. Death is a terrible enemy of mankind. I know that at this very painful time there is very little I could say in order to comfort you. However, when you have a moment please reflect on this wonderful promise here at Job 14:14,15. In part it says, ” If a man dies, can he live again? You will call, and I will answer you.” What a wonderful promise! For more information please visit jw.org
Jh Heriot says
Angelbickers you’ll never know how much I miss you both of what this has done to all of us Each day that passes by I look for you I love you so very much Love Mom
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Mom says
I miss your half brown eyes I miss your laugh your touch seeing you coming up the stairs in the morning for coffee watching tv with my your hugs I miss you so very much Chewchew looks for you everyday this just doesn’t get any easier for me my Angelbickers.
Jacintha Heriot says
Angelbickers I miss you we were together very day you have no idea how all this has affected me ….I want so much to hear you and laugh with you but I can’t anymore I do love you my only daughter I miss seeing your face in the morning and saying what a beauty…sharing our coffee in the morning on the deck I miss you and my Pumpkin so very much so very very much….. Mom
Jacintha Heriot says
Angelbickers it’s been one year since Derek took his life tomorrow we were at his funeral together today i have neither one of you with me….none of this has been an easy thing for me it’s changed me forever ….there is such an emptiness inside me that will never go away i loved you both so very much….mom
Mom says
This whole month I feel as though I’m m hanging on by a thread..I hear over and over just live each day.like it’s some piece of cake thing to do I want you both home with me I call your phone’s I don’t want to forget anything not even that some days I feel like shattered glass all askew I wish I could wake up and everything would be like it used to be only to realize that isn’t going to happening the end of my life time Your kids miss you ….and most days it’s just about unbearable to get through… johnner is so good he tries so hard to comfort me thru my tears I love and miss you both so unbelievably much. Love mom
Mom says
Angelbickers your birthday is one week away I haven’t got a clue how I’ll get thru that day since it’ll be my first one without you and I know how important they were to you…I am just trying to get thru each holiday without you and Pumpkin it so very hard to do….put the little white tree you bought me that day we saw them at hallmark the star is so clear and bright just like you guys were the light of my life of you two had any idea what this does to me…..what have you both done to all of us no time to catch my wind even love mom
Mom says
Angelbickers you have no idea how hard these holidays are for me a year ago we were shopping for Caleb and Claire together now excited you were about the tape .easier you bought John the little white ceramic tree that you bought for me as a surprise was the only thing I had out soon April will be here and it’ll be one year for you I feel sick to my stomach over you and Derek I have no idea how I’m going to do this year after year I love and miss you both so much….mom
Jacintha Heriot says
Bickers you and Pumpkin are with me every day I sometimes wonder in your room see the little wooden jars you’ve had for years look at all your clothes lined up in such perfect order the way you’ve been since you were two…you enter my thoughts so many times during each day sometimes I just need to pull into the gas station and sob over both of you soon it’ll be your first year and so it goes on ad on and on I 💘both so much mom
Mom says
Angel bickers I am trying to erase the month of April from my head I know it’ll bring every little detail rushing back ..it’ll also bring back the reminder that Derek will be gone for 1&1/2 years and a reminder that this will come again and again one then the other every 6 months for the rest of my life…I miss you both so much not a day goes by when you both enter my mind along with the memories of those days….and when you both were born so many memories of the things we did and that we will never make a new memory. I love you both so much…and John only has his memories along with Caleb he talks about how much he loved you it’s so unfair for all us left behind I love you both and there are no words for how much I miss you…Love mom
Mom says
Angelbickers you have been away from me for 1 year one month and 11 days now ..pumpkin has been away from me now for 1 1/2 years 1 month and 28 days nothing gets any easier Caleb still talks about you both how much he loved and misses you..it breaks my heart to hear him so many people left with only our memories who will teach me how to make a wreath I miss touching your hair your laugh the things we talked about sitting on the step outside watching you do your toenails I miss everything about you Bickers love mom
Mom says
Angelbickers have had to go thru Derek’s birthday couldn’t call reminded me of when he was born that Father’s Day….then he reminds of of you…and your birth you know this will come every 6 months Derek then you then Derek again then you year after year birthdays are hard It just goes on and on… I so miss seeing your half brown eyes hearing your voices talking to you not being able to touch you both…and then to realize this is how it’s going to be for me…love mom
Mom says
Angelbickers…time goes on but it only seems to get harder for me I want to hear your voices you and Pumpkin it just reminds me how permanent this is… I want to touch and hug and see your faces and I know that is not going to happen I just don’t know how I even got to this point with you guys….. I don’t know how you didn’t even think about what this would do to me or how much it would impact me There are no whys you can answer or that I can even begin to understand any of what has happened… I just miss and loved you both so much now I have only pictures memories and dreams of you both I love you I miss you mom
Mom says
Angelbickers one year and six months so many things I remember all the things we’d do sitting outside your chair breaking on you and you going through it I laughed so hard then the same thing happened to me I still wear our matching pjs, sweaters, and hoodies so many things Bickers our plane ride home from ca with uncle Steven and how you laughed when you you saw how red my face was. I miss and love you both so much sometimes it’s just hard to breath I e myself to just even function some days…..love you Angelbickers
Mom says
Angelbickers l miss you some days I relive going into your room and I remember everything it just rushes back that whole night everything. I have the same problem with Pumpkin I vividly remember Steven telling me I need to get up….I suppose those memories of you both will always come back to me… Funny I can see you standing by the washer doing laundry in your pajamas and turning to look at me it takes my breath away Angelbickers I love and miss you
Mom says
Angelbickers won’t be long before your 2 years rolls around and it’ll be 2 1/2 years for Pumpkin one day rolls by then another but they all seem like only yesterday to me… I some days I can see you and Pumpkin so clearly just as if you are right here looking at me. Oh what have you done you’ll never know.. am I learning to live with this hardly. There are so many memories I have of when you were both so young and then as you grew all the things we did together those things stopped so abruptly I miss you and love you mom
kh says
hi mom,
it’s been a little over two years now – it all seems so long ago and not long enough. our last conversation still breaks my heart to think about. i’ve seen you in some really bad states, but that was probably the worst. i find solace in knowing that you aren’t in any more pain. i don’t think i’ll ever know someone carrying as much as you did every day: physically, mentally, emotionally. whatever happens after you die, i know there is a lot less suffering for you.
still, i really wish i could talk to you and tell you everything thats going on with me. you’d get a kick out of it all. i could always count on you to be able to tell you what i wanted to say, how i wanted to say it.. no need for a filter. i’d really love to hear what you’d have to say about it, you were always so candid. i’ll always love you for that.
i’ll keep trying my best to look out for the girls like you taught me.
Mom says
Angelbickers just passed your second year in April…Both you an Pumpkin are always in my heart and everyday in my thoughts and I miss you both so much some days are so hard for me…we moved from Birdseye couldn’t keep it up especially in the winter you know how hard it was since you spent many days shoveling snow and walking up with road with me when we got stuck. It was the hardest thing for me to go in your room to touch you things look at all your treasures and pack them up…. brought everything of yours with me and cried the whole time packing. Haven’t unpacked some a lot of it yet am not ready to go through my feelings this soon again… I love and miss you both everyday …love me
Mom says
Angelbickers your birthday is fast approaching and I am facing another one without you here knowing that you would be 47 wondering how to might look now knowing you’d still look at me with your beautiful half brown eye….and all the memories we would’ve made and laughs we would have shared but yet this things aren’t going to be … if you knew how much I miss and think about you and Pumpkin everyday. How many memories I have of you both from the day you both were born things we did how painful some of them are how my heart just hurts for you both some days so much worse than others .. I look at chula and I even hurt for her wonder if she waits for you to come home…I love and miss you both mom
Mom says
Angelbickers this is a difficult day for me you would be 47 years old today a reminder that three years will be coming up in 6 months and 47 years ago I was giving birth to you …. with no thought that I would be in this position today…not having you and Pumpkin in my life day in and day out is so very hard painful and leaves me so empty inside.. have sorted through your slide daddy took of all those years of you both I remember the day of each one of them the birthday Christmas days at lajolla and San Clemente canyon hunting for pumpkins they are sometimes so painful to see but it’s so good to relive those times for you both. Today isn’t an easy day for me so I am going to go for now and deal with my own thoughts memories and feelings Love you much Angelbickers, mom
Mom says
Angelbickers got through your birthday which is never easy for me both yours and Pumpkins birthdays are hard….Christmas is coming and Caleb turned 6 then another year without you and Pumpkin will be done..I have seen some of your slides when you two were so small I can remember exactly when those were taken I love you Bickers mom
Mom says
Angelbickers have been thinking about you and Pumpkin a lot finding it difficult to get by these days probably because of the holidays and having your birthday just recently go by..that reminds me of when you were born then I go through all my memories of you both from all the years so many so so many and I miss you both
Mom says
Angelbickers your 3 years will be coming up in April still all seems like yesterday and I wonder how I could have ended up in this spot with both of you…..Went to see Aunt Cyndi in February was a painful trip to make since all our memories of you both are there….everywhere I went was a reminder of something that was about you both. Got to see Gladys and Juan of course you know she lives near Eastgate so we were around a lot of places you and I used to go….it was the hardest trip I’ve had to make since Derek…may not make it again went by the house on Bergen nothing down there didn’t’ remind me of you both I love and miss you so much and always think about you both love me
Mom says
Angelbickers it will be 3 years in 17 more days Bickers and I miss like as much as ever think about all the things you are missing with John’s kids they are so cute and funny you’d have so much fun with both of them. I wish John would’ve gotten the benefit of both you and Pumpkin to know his kids like he did both of yours. I spend a lot of time talking to you both…wondering how we ever got to this point but there aren’t any answers…all the time we’ve lost….we have memories to hang onto but I will always miss your touch your voices your laugh seeing tilt your head a certain way or catching a glimpse of you just the little things I’d se you guy’s doing love mom
Mom says
Bickers today is the 4/26 three years and five days now that I last got to see your half brown eye…watch you walk by me with coffee in hand…do a brake check on our way into town…hear you laugh…your voice on the phone…there are so many special memories that flit across my mind in full color detail…Angelbickers I miss you ……mom
Mom says
Bickers just got done writing to Derek his 50th birthday would be in twelve days June 20th I’ve been dreading this month as soon as April rolled around now it’s here and I just want to get through it. On my way to pickup Caleb from school I thought about the times I’d do a brake check with you while you were getting ready to drink your coffee…do you remember that ??!! Bickers I miss you so much!!!! I love you do you how much I hurt for you ..mom
Mom says
Bickers Just finished writing to Pumpkin about this being 4 years now still wake up at 1:00 or 2:00 in the morning and 8:30 at night can be difficult because of you…3 and a 1/2 years. Some nights I sit out on the steps and just remember many many things about you both. I miss you and Pumpkin Love you both Mom
Mom says
Bickers well it’s that time your birthday today I wonder what you’d be like today at 48….have been waiting for this day to come for weeks now yesterday all I thought about was the day I actually had you my mom and granddad both were there was all so long ago yet so clear in my mind….as is the reason I am writing this to you on your obit page….memories. Derek has been gone 4 years now and you 3 and 1/2 years. Still painful,yes will it ever get easier, no never. Caleb’s birthday is the 14th he talks about you and Derek, he remembers anyway I love you both so and miss you both so much everyday Mom
Mom says
Bickers your birthday came a week ago and was a real struggle for me but I suppose they all will be so it doesn’t matter Caleb will be 7 tomorrow he’s so excited then comes Christmas wish you both were here’ to share this with the kids I miss you both so much love you both mom
Mom says
Angelbickers just passed Derek’s 5th year so you are 4 and 1/2 I think this was the hardest yet for me….you were my partner in crime we used to laugh so much and I traded it in for tears now you have a birthday coming up soon Bickers everything seems to overwhelm me these days I wish I could call your cell phones just to hear both your voices. Kristie put me on another med I am to hypervigilent and anxiety ridden these days…..Love and miss you if I could see your half brown eye if only mom